the hardest things is: to luv u

assalamualaikum

I try so hard to love u, but till now I’m still can’t love u as much as u love me…all the day when I thought about u I’m cried 4 myself…no one knew how I felt…no one knew my heart hurt so much…why can’t I love u as u love me?? Why can’t I felt u in my side?? Why can’t I see u in my life?? Why?? I ask myself 4 the reason why I’m being like that…but I’m still can’t find that things…

I already had my past, that makes me fell I’m always in wrong part…something goes wrong when I’m happy…everything that happens in my past make me open my eyes to see what the future I am…

I don’t want u to get hurt because of me, that’s why I want u forget about me…ignore me in ur life, don’t ever take me back in ur life even it’s only 1 second…the condition that I gave u is to make me fall for u but now I realized that I’m to much to u… I’m the selfish one…not even think whether u hurt or not…I’m the cruel person that makes u cried when thinking about me, I’m the person who always makes u in trouble…

I already try to love u with all my heart but I can’t…how can I tell u, the things that I can’t love u, I’m force myself to see ur heart but I’m hurt so much…I hope u fell what I felt but I already know that u can’t see what I’m now…u can’t see the truth…

I’m begging on u, please….forget me in ur life, throw me away from ur heart, ignore me 4 the whole of ur life…no words that I can say to u other than “sorry”…

One things that I already know is u will hate me for what I’m did…but, I don’t care because u do the right way when u hate me with all ur heart…

p/s: Love other person who love u…then u will find the happiness…:-)…